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for drew [13 Sep 2004|11:15pm]
drew is the coolest guy on the planet times 10!
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whew [29 Aug 2004|10:44am]
[ mood | cranky ]

my goodness what a weekend where should i start? Friday night some friends and i went to the drink. For the first time i had a good time there and i was sober. At first we were just dancing then we saw this guy we know tony and his friend. So me and ryan started dancing with them. Then when we were leaving we talked to them for a little while and they got our numbers. So that was cool. Last night DJ had a birthday party for me and ryan. Thank god this year nobody let me leave. Kind of hard to believe that a year ago today i got a DUA.::shudders::. My weekend was awesome accept for one thing. Rob was so annoying. Hes cool when hes sober but when hes drunk hes really annoying and rebellious. And he tries to jump on the bandwagon and be cool like everybody else. The guys we hang out with like to mess around with everybody and he doesnt realize that i dont think because he was actually talking about me when i was "asleep". So that pisses me off and hurts my feelings at the same time. I wish somebody would have beat the shit out of him this weekend.but anywho im off to get ready for the longest day of my life. I dont reccommend going without sleep. it sucks

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long day [26 Aug 2004|10:12pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

I had a long day today..I met holly for lunch around 12 and we ate. Then we waited on ryan all day to go to cleveland. She never called though so holly and i just went on.I got lots of cute stuff for ryan. I'm glad i have some of that out of the way for her b-day gift. After we went there we went to hollys and did pedicures on eachother. It was such a fun girly time. Then her mom gave us money to go eat and some gas money for me. SCORE then i had to come home and cut hair. Thats about all it was for my day.. Now im going to watch a movie caio!

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alrgihty ditey [25 Aug 2004|11:09pm]
[ mood | content ]

ok so today was a decent day. I had to get up and go to baylor and chatt state with ryan so she could register for school. Im so glad i dont go there. In the 20 minutes i was there today every other person i saw i knew. I dont like that fact... I like to be able to meet new people and enjoy new experiences. Not see the same people i have seen for god knows how many years of my life already. Its ok though because im done with college and im on my way to an exciting career in the cosmetology field. Although im not sure thats what i want to do for the rest of my life. I am content with it for now. If i dont get anywhere in like 5 years i will probably go back to school to do something else. Plus its always good to be able to be good at more then one thing. As long as im having fun with what i do...Im happy. When we got done with all that we went riding around for a little while then we went to blockbuster. We rented this movie called strangeland....its ....strange alright. Then we watched perfect score...its a decent movie. Then we went to see jennifer at Andys house they were moving and everybody was in a bad mood. But here i am now at home and i have run out of things to say. Good day <3

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holy moly! [24 Aug 2004|12:32am]
[ mood | bored ]

geebus its been a long time since i have updated this thing...i guess my life just isnt that interesting. I graduated cosmetology school. I'm still waiting on my date to go take my state board though. The wait is what sucks really bad because its nerve racking. now that the summer is over it totally sucks. Nobody comes out during the week so all i have to do is stay at home and be bored. and the rest of my family has moved in now...its getting hard to adjust to the bathroom situation and the whole not having much privacy. i will move out soon though and it will all be gravy

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hmmm [29 Jul 2004|12:10am]
its been a while....nobody reads this thing anyways why am i writing?
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lala [29 Apr 2004|10:02pm]
I just wanted to let you guys know that these strawberry flavored green tea froZen thingamajiggys from my work rock ass!
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yeah [17 Apr 2004|10:28am]
[ mood | content ]

its been a while since i have written in thes thing i know. My life is just that boring....yeah right. All that goes on is drama and stuff like that nothing worth writing on here. But anyways jsut wanted to let you people know that i am alive!

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Sadness has taken over me [24 Mar 2004|09:58am]
[ mood | sad ]

So why exactly do things happen the way that they do? Death sucks. I have been scared of it all my life. It hurts me when people that i know die though. Especially if they are young. Gee Helton was the kind of guy who could brighten your day with a smile. I dont think there was ever a time that i saw him and he didnt have a smile on his face. He was a really sweet guy too. Its sad that his life had to end the way it did. Anywho im off to the funeral. We will all miss you Gee <333333 R.I.P

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so what? [26 Feb 2004|10:33am]
[ mood | thirsty ]

so it has been a while since i have written....so what? I tried to write the other day and i had this long entry going then my computer messed up i would have liked to kick it out the window. Anyways. Some stuff has been messed up lately but for the most thing things are going good. I started my new job....But im totally broke. I have tp figure out how im going to get gas money today because i dont have enough to make it to work and back. I cant wait for next week to be over. Im ready to get out of this shit town and go to panama. I am going to have so much fun down there.Zach is single again *yay*. Anywho im gonna get runnin. Bye people!

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ahhh when boredom comsumes you (thanks to Ashley) [25 Jan 2004|10:26pm]
First screen name: lol Gwiz12
First piercing/tattoo: Ears
First credit card: My debit card.
First true love: whats love?
First enemy: theres not telling
First concert: I don’t remember.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Eagles
Last big car ride: To knoxville a couple of weeks ago

Last kiss: uhhh last time i partied?
Last library book: im reading a book now...does that count?
Last movie seen: Dr. Doolittle 2

In the theatre: Cheaper by the Dozen
Last food consumed: puddin
Last phone call: Lindsey
Last CD played: Linkin Park : Meteora
Last annoyance: My mom
Last soda drank: Diet Coke
Last ice cream eaten: i dunno it was orange and white and swirly
Last time scolded: huh?
Last website visited: Livejournal

I AM: Katy
I WANT: A new car
I HAVE: to fart (j/k) i have a broked car :-(
I WISH: I could not be shy so i could have a b/f
I HATE: Stupid people
I FEAR: death and spiders
I HEAR: nothing! my computer has no fucking sound

I WONDER: If I will ever have a boyfriend
I LOVE: my friends and family
I ACHE: in my heart sometimes
I ALWAYS: do what i dont want to
I AM NOT: very amused
I DANCE: at the club
I SING: in my car
I CRY: when something is sad
I WRITE: whenever its necessary
I LOSE: my phone alot
I CONFUSE: Myself a lot
I NEED: to get a different life
I SHOULD: lose weight
YES or NO:
YOU KEEP A DIARY: uhh what do you think this is

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: not really

CURRENT HAIR COLOR: Brown with Blonde highlights

BIRTHPLACE: Camarillo California

DAY: saturday
MONTH: august
SONG(S): numb- linkin park
SEASON: Summer
DRINK: water or coke or diet coke

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: make out and cuddle at the same time

CRIED? yeah that damn movie brought tears
SAID 'i love you'?: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: i have no ex
MISSED AN EX?: see above

1. Eat a bug?: no
2. Bungee jump?: no
3. Kill someone?: no
4. Parachute from a plane? no
5. Walk on hot coals? no
6. Go out with someone for their looks? yeah
7. Be a vegetarian? no
8. Wear plaid with stripes? No
9. IM a stranger? yeah
10. Sing Karaoke? no
11. Get drunk off your Ass? all the time
12. Shoplift? i learned my lesson
13. Run a red light? yea
14. Star in a porn video? yes
15. Dye your hair blue? No
16. Be on Survivor? No
17. Wear makeup in public?: i cant go without it.
18. Not wear makeup in public? i hate doing it
19. Cheat on a test? yeah (ashley you are a bullshitter!)
20. Make someone cry? yea
21. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? no
22. Stay up all night?yeah
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no subject today kiddos [25 Jan 2004|10:23pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

13. Numb 03:05
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes

[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I hate having parents who try to control my every move :-\ im 18 and cant even make decisions for my own most of the time.

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lalalala [13 Jan 2004|05:18pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

its a sad sad world we live in. Not really. I feel like that sometimes. Most of the time i wish i could kick my ass for being so shy. Im so stupid. I act like guys dont like me at all but when one comes around i dont act on it. I get cold feet and avoid the situation completely. It really sucks. I dont know what to do though. I am really shy and i think im scared of commitment. It comes from seeing all the shit my friends have had to go through. But i guess the saying would be right that its better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all.
On a brighter note. I went and applied at O'Chizzles today. I talked to the manager and he said hes going to see what he can do to get me worked into the schedule for a job. I have my fingers crossed. I really need a new job. My McJob isnt McCutting it anymore. :-\ I can only take so much of one thing for a certain period of time. Anywho time to go and get my moms hair dye and come home and do her hair *YAY* :-\

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random rambling of nothingness (cool huh) (NO) [29 Dec 2003|02:06pm]
[ mood | awake ]

These past few weeks have been really crazy and fucked up. Some days are good....some days are bad. Cant i just have some consecutive good days in there? Something always happens. This weekend was pretty cool.Me and Ryan went to the club friday and saturday. Saturday we had to find 20 worht of change to get in...we found it all in the trusty 4-runner. :-D I saw ashley and george on saturday b 4 i went to the club. That was pretty cool. I havent seen them in forever and a day. Ashley...I just read your journal. I know what you are going through on being sad about george leaving. It seems like no time that he will be gone though. I still miss kiel alot even though we havent been the best of brother and sister all our lives. I still love him though and i miss him every day. It was really hard spending christmas without him. You have the love of other people to get you through the time spent away from him though. You can write to him every day and im sure he can call you every once in a while. Just try to keep yourself occupied as much as possible and you wont think about it as much. Thats what i try to do for all my problems...Thats why im such an active person. I like to be occupied so i dont have to think about things. Just remember that friends are just a phone call away.
On another note. New years eve is a time to party hard and have fun. Not when you have parents though. My mom is being totally bogus telling me she wants me to come home at like 12:30 on new years eve. There is no way im gonna be able to do that. I will find some way out of it...i always do. I must go now and warm my ass up. Ciao!

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poweless [24 Dec 2003|12:01am]
[ mood | sad ]

Its times like that that i wish i had the power to just erase everything bad thats going on. I just sit here and think about things when im alone. It gets me depressed.I dont know how much more i can take. I try to keep myself busy so that i wont have to think. MY grandma is dying and she gets less and less time to live every day. I dont know how much more i can handle of my mom being so sad. Im not use to it. On top of that, Ryan leaves the 2nd. Im really going to miss her. She doesnt get to come home for a while because of practice. Shes the only person i can really relate to on the same levels and actually tell my problems to. When my grandma dies im not going to have anybody there for me.I will manage though.

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Death [20 Dec 2003|08:28pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Death is one of my biggest fears in life. Do people really want us to mourn at their death? or do they want us to just remember all the good times of the past? I truly believe that god has a purpose for everything and that when somebody dies, its for a certain reason. Why do so many people have to die at once? Why do people have to suffer so bad before they die? WHY?! I dont know how much more of this shit i can handle.

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Some people i swear [05 Dec 2003|04:37pm]
[ mood | sad ]

This guy who i gave my number to a long time ago has been calling me. I think i kind of like him. He has a fiance though. That really sucks. He said hes trying to get rid of her but its not working. She wont get the hint that he doesnt want her anymore....or so he says. People keep telling me to watch out because he could just be telling stories. I think im scared of commitment anyways. I see how messed up my friends relationships can get and i dont want to be like that. It reall scares me. Anyways, Tim came to see me today at school. I was happy and it was all good. Then a lil later about 4 my sister called me. She told me that my mom had just found out that my grandma has cancer...and the doctors arent going to do anything about it. I started bawling at school. On the way home to see my mom i was more mad then anything. My instructor was mad because i was going home. Shes so fucking worried about making money. She doesnt care about other peoples feelings. Her exact words were "couldnt they have waited till you got home from school to tell you about it?" That made me more mad then anything. Im sorry but family comes before school with me. Just because she has a fucked up marriage. Its just beyond me how rude people can be. I came home to be with my mom and she wasnt even here. She had went to see my grandma and tell her the news. The doctors called my mom and told her about it my grandma doesnt know yet. Im scared to see my mom when she gets home. All I will be able to do it cry :'(

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dont start no shit there wont be no shit [28 Nov 2003|12:27am]
I HATE DRAMA. People tell stories and leave out shit that is important and it gets other people into trouble. On top of being pissed about that somebody hacked our AOL account and now i cant even check my mail.
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fucking shit [20 Nov 2003|07:10pm]
I really think its fucked up how people tell you they are going to do one thing. Then they do another. So you just get left out to hang. And they cant even have the balls to call and tell you something. And they have to put dicks before chicks
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bleck [19 Nov 2003|10:40pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

I havent written in a while. I have just been a little busy. I remember when i couldnt wait until i was 18. I shouldnt have a curfew or anything. For some reason my mom is being a total witch about things. Giving me a curfew...telling me i can go places. Its killing me. I feel like shes smothering me. She never did this to my brother and sister. Why does she have to do it to me?! If i mention anything about it then she gets all pissy. "your not your brother or sister...we learned from our mistakes". Bull shit. Im going to go insane. I wish i could move out of here... I cant until im out of school though. Thats about 6 more long months. Then not to mention the month before i get my lisence. Then enough time to save up money and pay my mom back for the insurance i cant pay. That is all if im not dead by then. I have been having a problem with people in general lately. Everybody is so anal. It gets on my nerves. Its like if one little thing falls out of place then people have to go off about it.

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